I don't know if I want to stay married...?

If you are asking, then a part of you still wants it to work. Maybe do the best you can to save it... seek therapy, individual, family and couple. Make an honest effort. You will know what you want to do then. You can look at your husband and honestly say that you gave it your best shot and you don't feel that there's the potential for reconnection with the two of you. And, on the other hand, you may find yourself rediscovering why you married him and how important your family is to you. The key is to be completely honest with yourself and your spouse, whichever way you choose to move forward.